Childhood

When I assumed senses, approximately five years old; I found myself having bandages on my full arms and legs. It was a painful moment for me as I couldn’t move my body parts. I cried because of extremely pain which I had. I was left lying on bed and sometimes even on floor as well. It was desperate part of my life as I was feeling weak and I couldn’t handle my own self. I was dependent upon my mother for all sorts of work. I felt pain all the time. Even I couldn’t sleep at nights because of pain. When I was taken to doctors for consultation. Doctors said to my mother her bones are too much weak due to accident. As mother said, Accident happened, when you was with your father on the bike, he was getting late for the office, he began driving faster along the crowded road. All of a sudden there was a loud noise. A van was coming from the opposite direction. It was being driven rashly. Road became block & Many people surrounded us. Your bones were badly crushed.  Doctors said, her bones are badly affected. I was little relieved to hear that I’ll be better with medication. But when I came to know that I’ll not be able to walk in my life, I felt like whole world came into pieces in front of me. That was the first time I heard the word ‘Sorry’ from doctors. They said they are sorry; no medicine would ever make me able to walk again.

I used to see my siblings walking, playing and going to school but I was told that I am different so I cannot do all these things. Some people even used to advise my parents that this girl will not survive for long and maybe they should pray for my death. They even said that there is no benefit in my going to school. These sorts of things enhanced my problems. When my siblings went to school, I used to look towards them with my eyes filled with tears. People was continuously making my life miserable. People criticize me and it made me mentally ill also. I did not know how to get my mind off of all this stress. I asked my mother that I also wish going to school and get education. But it happened what I was afraid of as my mother refused to send me to school.

School

After 8 years we shifted towards Johar town from Samnabad (Lahore). Where we used to live, that flat was on the second floor. Then I put a lot of efforts in convincing my mother to send me to the school. I repeatedly said that so finally she agreed. When I went to school for admission with mother then principal of the school, she said if she never read before then how will she pass the final board exams?  She will definitely fail and it will be bad impact for our school. SORRY we cannot give her admission. I don’t know what next thing came into her mind and they give me admission. It was close near to my home where I was living. There were 10 flats on the ground floor. We requested them to exchange their flat (who was on the ground floor) with our flat (who was on the 2^nd floor).Being as a wheelchair user I cannot go up the stairs. They also said SORRY. Then I told my mother I will study and I will manage myself you don’t bother. Now my medical condition is much better. I have decided I would face all the problems and would not lose my hope and aim, because many dreams are in my eyes and I want to achieve them. I was spiraling down from the stairs, and similarly I came down, that stairs was round about 24 to 26. My hands were injured. People laughed at me and said how she will??? She is wasting time .their words hurt my heart. But I cannot do anything except tolerate their hurting words.  Then i overcome my hardships and put the negative aside, trying to focus on the positive impacts throughout my life, while making the best of it. I remained constant. And it was my daily routine which is remaining 2 years even I gave final exams and I passed with first division. Allah is giving me reward of my efforts.

College

After passing my school I went to college and took admission. It was a big milestone for me to go to the college daily. I was much exited. When I enter in the class the teacher said to me you couldn’t sit front of the board. If you want to study you will have to sit opposite of the board. We cannot keep you wheelchair front of the board. It would be bad classroom image. I felt very strange but sit there. After some days when I told to the principal that I cannot pick lecture from opposite of the board then he said you will have to manage. He also said SORRY to me. I sat opposite 2 years. I was surprised that a lot of girls in the classroom approximately 50 but no one told to the principal you should manage her wheelchair, how she will study???? It was very painful for me. A teacher is always role model for the students. I feel theoretical subjects easier than mathematical subjects. I did not understand how to take lesson and how to remember them. After some days, I saw a poster in college for learning painting. I got register myself. I was very fond of paintings, mostly different colors attract me .i want to learn paintings and I want to create own custom pictures which I like and which I want.  I took one week class. When I came college next day, Painting teacher said to me now our painting class shifted on the 1^st floor .because where it were before classes that place is very small and not fell easy   there . I did not listen her whole thing and went away from there. They also said SORRY if I stay there for more time.